right now i feel so good i could explode, which usually pre-empts a serious swing in the other direction. but never before have i arrived at this feeling through a series of logical steps, never has it been the product of confidence. Always chance inklings and baleful but placatory blots of thought… seemingly squeezed out of buried recesses by the chemical swelling of other part of my brain. I think i have activated something good… something that is healing. and no im not on any drugs either. i am on no high horse, nor am in a place of cathartic self-chastisement. What is this? How long will it last? Will i remember in the morning?
